This will be the finnal entery untill something else comes up… okay it is the last one about the marathon… untill NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! yes I am an idiot and after I tell you about the last dreaded 6.2 miles you will understand why I say that I am an idiot. I am doing it again. even after the last 6.2 damn near killed  me. so you know… I went and mapped out the section that I thought was the accual rout. the route that I was going to do was exactly 1 mile… the route that I was supposed to do was .9 miles. so I would have been over… the extra that I did…. was an extra .6 miles. so I did 26.8 miles… yes I wanted to be sure to put that in here. Because I ran MORE than a marathon and I did it in 5:06.18 and that is respectable. and I will beat it next time. : )

so I ended on mile 20…. I dont have pictures Untill mile 24 so you will have to listen to me paint the picture for you as best that I can… My two oldest children unbenounced to me went with dad to the house and picked up thier bikes so that they could ride with me in.  The two youngest went with my sister in her car. as I went past the beaver loop… I had a mental block. this is were I hit and called my husband and had him come to pick me up. remember that mile 20 was just up the hill and everyone was there and I was getting nutrition and it was all good. I was tired… But it was still all good. but as I went down the hill… I remembered a story from when I was a kid. about my uncle that passed away when I was a junior in high school. He was fishing in that little creak… and he saw a bear. left the fish for the bear and walked backwards to the car… and his frekals were bigger than his nose by the time he got to the shop… were I wanted to laugh… I couldnt I cryed. and thankfully Sandy was there. she is the one that talked me into this thing… and I cryed while she told me how strong I was and much m uch more. and she ran with me…. IN DRESS SHOES. for a little while. I needed that….

so I ran on… still lossing more of my mind as I went. so this all gets dicey even more than before. I remember seeing the T shirt place. and I remember searching for a place that was going to tell me how many miles I had done. so I kept looking and looking and my feet were shuffeling. I was realizing that my feet were not lifting and that I kept coughing. I thought it was just the stupid poweraide phlem that I always get. so I was just coughing and spitting and kept going. somewere my mind focused… and I realized I was looking for another sign… and it said. 23!!!! Okay so I lost a few miles in there and wait a minute…. there are kids with me now. and oh look…. theres JULIE from swimming. and if I wave maybe she will give me a ride home…. No Fly RUN! RUN FLY RUN! the kids were talking and it was making me mad. no reason as to why. they were saying things and it just irritated me… Than a BIG RIG honked…a nd I waved and than we were at Swires… and I stopped to drink and walk… 60 seconds latter… I was yelling at my legs to move. so now we are at 2 times stopping. for only 60 seconds of walking each… and as I yelled at my legs they started to move again and the pain was intense my mind had to find another place to be… and it did. I dont know were that place was or what it was doing there. But it only came out long enough to yell at T~ fly when he said…

“Look momma there’s NANNA!”

I almost lost my hat at him…. ” would you just GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

than Hubby had to explain that I was no longer myself. that he couldn’t take it to heart. that I was in alot of pain.

This is were the noise makers came into play. and yelling and go mommas and and and…. JERRY WAS THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I saw  him I remember seeing him. he told me this morning that he knew I was gone. that when he looked at me he saw only me seeing the road… that I was a woman in pain. and I would see nothing but the road. I was only there to finnish at that point.

see all the love…. OH MY!!! the love was there.

I have no idea if I even looked to see if I had the right of way… I just kept moving for fear that if I stopped I couldnt get my legs started again… Michelle was back and I was so thankful. she talked me through the tears… My family couldnt do it for me at that moment. I am not sure why. But she was able to feel the pain and bring me through the other side.

the tears starting to fall ….

from here it was along the highway to get to Walker lane again… and you know I dont remember seeing hte road. I remember crying and hearing michelle tell me that You have practiced for this stretch of the road. I saw you just last week doing this. you are ready… you are strong. those…. silly … but those words were true. But I just never imagined I would be so tired when I got to that stretch of road.

mile 25…. How int he world did I make it this far…. see the lady in Pink in the back groune next to a car. jerry went home and told his wife that I wasnt doing well. and off she came to watch me go the rest of the way in… and cheer and tell me I could do it. HOLY COW I needed to hear it too…..Cause I wasnt so sure…. the brain was so gone I was only moving to move…. and I know now… But didnt see it at the tiem. I QUIT taking in nutrition AND Water by than…. so I was TOAST!

everyone stopping traffic. funny thing I remember the cars thought they were there to take pictures. didnt realize they were saving my life. they were stopping people from going up the roads while I was running. I wasnt stopping for anyone….

notice all the cars the bikes the people… I could have NEVER DONE THIS WITHOUT THEM!

down to the shoot and the tears were a coming down my face and everyone had steared off and was letting me have the moment. but you see the bike int eh back ground. she saw me in the begining and saw me through to the end. All of you did!!!!!!!!!!! without you… I never could have done THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!

after being escorted off…. we sat and let me get food. I was so worried I would puke… NO WAY did I… : )

and as we sat and talked they asked me if I’d ever do it again… I asured them NEVER!!!!!!!!!!! by the morning I was talking myself back into it. I can’t leave my time the way it went… I can’t leave it as it is in my brain… a FAILURE. I know I finnished and that was my main goal. But I wanted under 5 hours and that was obtainable. I let myself fall apart and not keep my nutrition up… I will be training a little different next year. and with that… might be eating pizza ont  e run. : ) never know 

 For now I leave you with the real meddle of honor over this whole thing… my toe. the loss of a toenail. and the thought that I RAN A MARATHON. a fish out of water is what I am… and the shirt could not be more perfect. as it is salmon with shoes on thier tail fins running. : ) just like me they are fish out of water. : ) and I will try to do this again…

 and I want to be able to come accross with a smile instead of all the tears. : )

Here is the big thing I want to make sure you all know… running 26.2 was an enlightenment… I know that I CAN do it. I know that I AM strong enough. and most of all… I KNOW that I have the family to support my crazy life choices. will they be there behind me during the months of training. yes they will. will they feel slighted sometimes when I cant do something because I must run and train. WELL DUH! but they will be there every step of the way to watch me do it again. and they will be there with thier bikes. and they will hold me through all the tears….

I am the MOST BLESSED MOMMA FLY IN THE WHOLE WORLD!

thank you … Momma moose…papa moosie…. sistah lessa…. nieces and nephews….  Hubby fly….  Fly babies…. Jerry and wife…… ANGIEMALE… Michelle… Sarah…Peggy… ANNA…SANDRA… Momma Widman and baby widman… all the church family praying….. and the one that surprised me the most… Forest… my mail lady for as long as I can remember … after she ran her leg. they went from station to station to cheer me on as well.

I couldnt have done it without you guys. I am sure there are more…t he vollunteers that were there. the ones handing me the water or the ones catching me at the end… you were all instrumental in me making it. and I thank you

Onto the next path that my life is taking me….

next summer. ont he books.

May GNT …..June Tri the Kenai… July the last 1/2 iron man in Alaska… September the marathon…

the summer is mapped out this far. and I am ready as I am going to be. and I am starting training now. : ) love this. I realy do. no matter how much I whine while I am doing it.

Momma Fly out!!!

Posted: October 4th, 2010 under Marathon training, Running.
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Here is were it starts to get dicey… you see I was so excited to be running and doing it with such ease. and I was running a nice 10 min mile pace. at the 13.1 mark I was at a nice 2 hours and 14 minutes 17 seconds. that is a  such a perfect wonderful 1/2 time. I was looking at my watch thinking this means that the full in 4 hours and 30 seconds is so douable… WAHOOOO!!!!

But I took the wrong turn. and a running friend turned me around. But that means that I did that much extra. Know your course momma fly know your course. and since I wasnt paying attention… I am the one that lost out. I ended up following my friend which was fine but my nutrition was off by than as well. i was paying to much attention to beating my self up for the wrong turn that I got off schedual for my nutrition…

So buy the time I was here at mile 17… my mind was starting to go. “what mile is this?” I asked. Two dear friends Miss Forest and Sarah answered.. “mile 17! youve got this girl.”

I than got the call I had been thinking about from Jerry. “were are you?” and I told him “on my way up Lancashire hill. should be to you in about 50-60 minutes.” I was way off. WAY OFF!!! I wasnt to him for another 80 minutes. this is when I started to fail.

once up Lancashire hill. I could bairly make out the car place int he distance. and could see that there were people there. I knew it was my family but I needed to get in some nutrition. so I walked for the FIRST time in the marathon. I alowed myself one minute to walk while I got my nutrition in me and some water to wash it all down. and than I hear the foot steps of someone. and I never like that.

I started running right away…and this guy was so cool. he kept reasuring me that he was only doing 7 miles…

you are doing the WHOLE THING. you are AMAZING. just keep it up!

Mile 19 this is the one that I could’t get through in training without weeping and calling my husband…

and this hill took it out of me. no matter how much I trained for it. up and down… down and up.. it didnt prepare me for how it woudl KILL me to get up it after 19 miles of running… But my family was there and the girls ran with me keeping my spirits up and letting me know … your doing great momma. But you know … I noticed right here that the girls would start to run to only walk because I had slowed that much…

as I ran to mile 19 I kept singing a song it wasn’t a nice song.but it was all because of a picture of DYNAMITE I had in my pouch. you see 19 was the BIG WALL for me… and a friend passed me some virtual dynamite to blow through the wall. and I took it with me. * BEAMS *  and so I was blowing up F***ING number 19 thats right not going to do you again. ect… and than Michelle came up on her bike and scared the pants off me catching me singing . LOL. together we made it to this at 20

all my family running with me to get me through number 2o….

On my way to work again…

TBC…

Marathon momma OUT!

Posted: September 28th, 2010 under Marathon training, Running.
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the BIG MARATHON!!!!!
I have gone through a gambit of emotions. from wanting to puke, to knowing it is okay to cry on the ground in the middle of the race, to knowing I am going to ROCK THIS than going all through it all over again. It is amazing what the brain can do to you…. Now I am trying to figure out exactly what breakfast to have. I know my oatmeal will sit to heavy. it never does me well before a race. But this is a longer one so my special K wont cut it either. so onto my PB&J toast. YEAH ME! I love that stuff….

I took a few pictures to share with you all…s o you know I really am doing this. I know my momma will be there today as well as my hubby. so many pictures will be taken throughout the day…. and I will share those with you when they come my way. but for now…….

I woke up to these signs all over the trail yesterday… they had done it all on Friday night… I had seen a few in soldotna but now they are EVERYWERE!

I KNOW its sideways…. But these cones were int he challanger center telling us which way to go. : )

AND THAN!!!!!! I got the number…. I stood there for a moment, and the girls I have done tri’s with that are not stupid enough to do a marathon, looked at me.    ”Well if I dont take the number I can walk away and no one will know I chickened out now but me….. If I take the number I have to show up and run it… I’m weighing my options” They laughed and shoved it into my hands….. so there it is… #112

Than we say through presentations… the power point was good. it does get confusing in soldotna… I am going to hope the person in front of me doesnt get lost. LOL!

This part cracked me up. there is a picture in the top corner of people SMILING at this spot in the race. and of course it is at the begining…. the one in the end… they are smiling too but it is a different smile. I missed getting that one. you will have to forgive me. Hee hee

so there it is…. I am realy doing it… in only * checks watch * 1 hour and 45 min…. and than in about another 5 hours… I will be done. and ready to die. because I know I will have cried alot….

someone that doesnt even realise how much she has influenced me is having this run dedicated to her. as a wise friend told me…. remember you are doing this for the people who can’t. when your legs can bairly move and you are walking… remember the peole that you have taken care of that couldnt even do that. the ones that cant walk… you are walking for them because you are fortunate enough to be able too….. and she is right. I am fortunate enough to move these silly legs. even when they hurt.   

so many of you know who you are…. But R.H. you my dear lady friend are one who used to run these…. you loved running and are too ill to do so right now. I carry your picture in my pouch today. YOU ARE running this marathon today with my legs. I love you and this is as much for you as it is for me. : ) keep me driven friend.

Marathoners prayer… ” Lord if you lift ‘em I’ll drop ‘em”

see you all on the flip side.

Marathon momma fly 420 miles into the training… to do a wonderful 26.2 mile run….. OUT!!!!!!!!!!

Posted: September 26th, 2010 under Marathon training, Running.
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so another week bites the dust and I am a happy camper…. I got to spend time with two of my besties…. So my running buddy that is like WAY faster than me when running… took off from Gaswell road…I left on the rout that I shared with you just a while ago… I got to the bottom of the FIRST BIG hill and wouldn’t you know it I see her smilen face a comin my way….. “Hey speed demon…” I said…. and she ran with me back with me till we got close to the rodeo grounds… than she sais I am gonna…. Yes hun go ahead I know I am slow. go for it!

she did tell me how good I was doing and that she was proud and all that wonderful stuff. it is great to have someone with you for a while. But I understand that she is so much faster…. I was ALMOST There… and I got the coolest text from my swim coach. she is out of town visiting her son and she sais… ” I know this will sound silly but I miss you!!!! and you know what it isnt cause I miss her lots too. I am eager for her to come home.

so let me see… what did my week look like.
Monday swim with coach for 2900yards
tuesday 4 mile run and than Dr. visit
wednesday 8 mile run and than work. : )
thrusday 4 mile run than float in the water for 700 yards and talking
Friday 2700 yards nice hard kicking workout… coach would be proud!
Saturday 16 miles…. it was a nice morning… no rain in sight lots of sun. almost to the over heating stage.t han at the end a drizzle of rain. it was wonderful. so I am looking forward to this next week at work. it will be wonderful….

and even beter is the thought that I am

miles 210 +3 out of 435 in 11 weeks only another 225 more to go in 7 weeks!

Posted: August 7th, 2010 under Marathon training, Running.
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