So here I have been thinking about how to wrap up last year…. and I never did a thing. That really wraps it up. As far as the Internet goes… I haven’t got much done on here. I looked and once I was so wrapped up in getting Hubby better…. well I dropped off the face of the earth here. And for that I am sorry. But there are a lot of new adventures that we are undertaking here. And we are learning so many new things about each other and about the world. Hubby and I are happy and lucky. Lucky to be alive and happy to be together … happy in every since of the word.

I have thought about a news years resolution. It is one of those things that people make and break. Weight financing etc.. I don’t want to make one of those. I am going to try to loose weight again and stick to it… No matter how sick hubby gets. BUT I will not give myself the pressure of the new years resolution to go with it. So I have thought what would I stick too….. and what will be hard to accomplish for me… yet something I could forgive myself if I didn’t that way I would be MORE likely to try. Here it is…..

I am going to think of myself more often.

Strange one hun? Most people try to think of others more. But you know… I really have lost myself in everything and I am more willing to drop EVERYTHING to help a friend than I am to drop everything for myself. SO I am going to get my things taken care of. So there will be surgeries and life to deal with. I will be in and out and sick and well… I will need everyone to understand that I need to be a little selfish right now. And I ask for your forgiveness now. Because I always say you need anything you call em … if it is in my power I will MAKE it happen. That is how I live my life… even when I have little there are those in the world that have less and I will give you what I have. This year I ask for something from everyone out there…. Understanding. That it might not be in my power at that time to make things better for you But it doesn’t mean I love you any less. Or that my heart isn’t aching to do it for you I am only in a time were I need to come first. I love you all. I thank you for your understanding and love in this.

Now this year. I am going to heal me… and think of me. I promise to take that 30 min. every day to do something for me and NO ONE ELSE. If I don’t I will forgive myself. That is the hard part. I promise myself to get all the things done for my health so that I will be here for the long future for you … my faithful 3 or so that read here……..and more importantly for my children so that I may be their rock . This year…. is for… ME!

Now run right out and make yourself a promise to think of you and do what you need to do. I love you all. MUAH!

DF OUT:dragonfly:

Posted: January 2nd, 2007 under This-n-that.
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