A “so called” friend has listened to all the bad about me… and apparently there is A LOT from my ex boss and she is no longer my friend. Wonderful text to get on Mothers day… “Goodbye to you as well. the emails reguarding my job were too much….” are you kidding me….? really? you have not been here so you are ONLY going off of the small bit that they give you. Did they talk to you and tell you what I brought up with each of the board members? Did they tell you what I said in the meeting? Did the Doctor it up?

I am going to bet that they only said what they wanted you to hear to make you think I was against you. when one of the main things that was said…. ” My kids refuse to swim with this team if SHE is NOT there…..”

Just sayin’

Posted: May 15th, 2012 under This-n-that.
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I deactivated my facebook and it will stand that way for a while… a looooong while. I will write here every now and than. but really why do I need to be in contact with people everyday. it isnt like it is helping me with anything at this time. NOW I will be able to take the time I would normally be on that stupid thing to Blog.

It has been so long since I did this and if there are people that truly want to hear about me, they will find me. Because they will know about this place. But I dont need the high school drama with the adult hurt. the uncontrollable crap that happens in an adult level that will drive many (Me included) to wanting to end it all…. so there for I am trying to take myself out of all the problems. really It will take  along time for many to realize I am gone anyway. just as if it was in real life….

Those that will notice right away… are those that are close enough to care. and those will know were to find me…. alls well that ends well…. or thats what they say anyway.

People that are so chicken manure that they use text instead of using their voice to tell someone good bye I will never talk to you again because of something that happened in a work place says a lot about their character. I thought that this person was an amazing person. I felt the best about this person. I thought they would understand that I was fighting for equality. that isn’t what happened. the “Board” if I can call it that…. decided to tell this person what was in an email to only them… and it was asking for equality that was all. asking what was happening as they SCREWED me out of my position. soooooooooo, she now has read into it what they want her to read into it.

I reread my email. and if you didn’t know what had been happening… you could read into it the  email what you wanted to believe… and that is were we sit. people that are tainting what I say or mean into what they want it to be. as if I was being Malicious .  I wasn’t and in the meeting that followed that email was me sitting in there saying that I wanted it to be HER and only HER….

But she cannot be here to hear all that. so now… on Mothers day when I should be happy and loving my children I have her texts RUINING my day… and making me want…. not to be here anymore…

SO for that… and for the reason that i am not being taken the way I want to be… I am finding my hole … this page … that NO ONE CAN TELL ME WHAT TO SAY AND WHAT NOT TO SAY….

I will be here in my own hole… to drown in… alone.

Posted: May 13th, 2012 under This-n-that.
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Children, have I told you lately that,
‘I love you, a bushel and a peck!
A bushel and a peck, and a hug around the neck!
A hug around the neck, and a barrel and a heap
A barrel and a heap, and I’m talkin’ in my sleep.’

Posted: May 5th, 2012 under This-n-that.
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So here I sit…. trying to learn how to begin again. I am not working any more. so I am learning how to be a mom again. I am not a coach any more. So I am learning how not to coach. that is a hard one. You can take a person out of a coaching position but you CANNOT take the coach out of the person.

Last night I learned that were I had to go through a “Hiring process” to get the position I had held for over a year, the lady that has been coming in for the summer was going to be hired right away because they “Knew she was coming like every year” really?  Than I found out that they were not opening it to the public as it is a position that is hers and has been the whole time. last year she was NOT PAYED by this company just like I was not…. she was payed through the district as a lifeguard just as I was…. But Mine was open to another applicant. I tell you I AM PISSED…..

there is nothing that I can do about it. I HATE Facebook. I  am using it at this point to only get ahold of new clients for my nails. I have no idea what I plan to do with the stupid thing. But I know that I am blocking all the likes and all the games and people I never talk to … and I don’t know… it is all so confusing and stupid. ARG!

So I am now an example … as one lady said.. ” I feel they will strip it all away from you just to ‘SPIT’ you” and so they have….

so I am on my own with all this… the kids and I have been through HELL THE PAST MONTH!!!!! and I am not ready to let ANYONE in for a looooong time.

I am ready to figure it out on my own. I am going to start running again… foot be damned… there is no pool home for me. and never will be again. I am going to learn how to do this all with nothing….

DF OUT!

Posted: May 1st, 2012 under This-n-that.
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